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Fordi twitter tillater bare sånn...2 ord så skriver jeg like gjerne om mitt lille dilemma her.

Vel ja jo. hvor skal jeg begynne. Det har seg jo slik at jeg rett og slett liker TO gutter på en gang, ganskje fjortiss ikkesant?
Vet egentlig ikke selv hvordan det egentlig er mulig, men det viser seg å være det.
noe som gjør meg temmlig forvirret hva jeg skal gjøre.
skal jeg velge gutt nr.1, som jeg alt er sammen med, eller gutt nr.2 som jeg også liker?
jeg møtte dem begge ca samtig,vet egentlig ikke hvorfor jeg endte opp med den ene og ikke den andre. tror rett og slett det er fordi jeg ble "tvingt" lol inn i forhold med den ene fordi jeg ikke klarte(hadde hjerte) til å si jeg ville vente, og derfor endte opp med å være hans.
selv om jeg ble sammen med han likte jeg forsatt han andre, som jeg holdt mitt forhold skult for en goood stund før han fant ut at jeg var sammen med min nåværende type. Men til min forskrekkelse ble han ikke sur, men sa heller han skulle "vente" på meg. o  er han like forelska i meg enda.

Begge to er herlige mennesker. begge to er super snille, og får meg til å føle meg spesiell når jeg er sammen med dem. til tross for at de er veldig forskjellige mennesker.
nr.1 er snill,gjør alt for at jeg skal ha det bra, betaler alt for meg selv om jeg føler meg teit når han bruker opp hans penger på meg.han er machogutt som konkurrerer i judo, så hvis jeg er sliten eller trøtt, vil ha bære meg rundt på ryggen som en bortkjemt unge lol. spør hele tiden fremmede på gata "er hun ikke søt?" osv, litt flaut, men søtt. Ulempen er språket, vi kan ikke ha lange samtaler om dype ting osv, for han engelsk er OK, men ikke super god, klarer ikke å utrykke seg 100% noe som for meg kan være litt vanskelig i lengden?? har også en del rare meninger om ting....
aldri møtt familien hans,men vil jeg skal komme en tur til byen hans. faren og mora har ikke verdens beste forhold, der faren ofte stikker av osv. om jeg ender opp med han, vil jeg helst ha en fungerende svigerfamilie, kanskje å tenke litt langt frem i tid, men det er viktig ikke sant????
men alt i alt er han en snill gutt,men usikker på om fremtiden er det med han..


nr.2 er verdens søteste med det mest troverdige smilet jeg har sett. jeg møtte han først etter å ha snakket online sammen, klarte ikke å si nei til å møtes når jeg først var like der han var. og jeg angrer ikke. alt fra første stund føltes det som vi hadde kjent hverandre i evigheter, snakket til klokka 6 om morgenen, til solen gikk opp. han er sykt enkelt å snakke med, har sittet opp mange netter sammen ute på gata, eller på coffeeshops bare å snakket å helt glemt tiden. ser for meg at vi kan snakke for resten av livet uten å gå tom for ting å snakke om lol. han er også super snill, kommer med mat til meg klokke 3 om natta om jeg sier jeg er sulten, bærer baggen min når jeg er trøtt i armene, låner meg genseren når jeg fryser.. utseende messig osv er han helt forskjellig fra typen min. han er lang, kler seg veldig fint, bruker manpurse osv lol alltid fine skjorter.ikke pen kanskje, men søt!! . litt sånn typisk steriotype koreansk med briller,super smart og studerer økonomi med bare toppkarakterer, dømt til å lykkes en dag. er så langt fra macho som det går,driver ikke med noe sport til tross for at han er veldig flink til å danse. kommer fra en bra familie der begge foreldrene også er økonomigenier. familien liker meg, faren har bilde av meg på mobilen han viser til venner og slekt? lol syns jeg er supersøt. noe som er søtt,men creepy på en måte også??
uansett, han er en type som er svigermors drøm, snill,høfflig,morsom,supersmart...
men han har aldri hatt kjæreste før. kan kyssa meg faktisk mens vi satt og snakket. og det var ja, ikke så bra hahah så jeg sa "prøver du å spise meg???!" han sa bare unskyld og sa jeg var den første han hadde kysset. klomsete men ja søtt.


Jeg er sykt forvirret hva jeg skal gjøre.begge to er supre gutter, vil jo ikke såre noen av dem på noen måte. for å si det slik. å velge en er som å velge mellom mine to favoritt iser, pistasje is og kiwi is. om noen spør "marita, du kan velge ENTEN pistasj is eller kiwi is, hva vil du ha?" UMULIG.

Present from Korea!

Got a biiiiiig package from Korea! I thought it would fit in my mailbox, so I got surprised when I had to go to the postoffice to get it. And when I saw it my face was like " =D =D =D =D". 

Nothing is more awesome than getting Christmas presents after Christmas! 

Inside the box, it was another box!

And inside that box it was.......Another box!

At this point I thought that maybe it was nothing inside lol just 1000 boxes. But I was wrong. But it makes sense, who wanna use alot of money shipping boxes right??

 Inside the box it was alot of different korean candies and ramyun! But I also got 4 pair stocking, with a note saying I had to keep warm in the Norwegian winter, very cute!

And at the bottom of the box it was a small plastic bag with army tag necklace in it. Now the army tag is hanging beside my bed, so I look at it before I sleep.

Miss you..... 

My new party dress!

 

Bought a new pretty dress for CGprom from tbdress.com. Tbdress got many pretty and cheap dresses that are being handmade, so can order whatever dress in whatever color. So my choice was of course to buy a gold dress, thats why I bought gold high heels to myself for Christmas. I ordered the dress only 20 days ago, and got it the 27th december. Very quick when the dress is handmade and sent from China! I thought the quality would be really shitty, but guess what, its so well made! 

Its fun that its written "extremely urgent" on the package, when its not urgent at all. It took only 2 days from China to Norway! Its the most fast package I have ever gotten. 

So this is how my dress look like. The beadings at the back of the gown is so pretty! I have actually not tried it yet, so I'm not sure if it fits me lol. But I bought it in european size 34 (Size 4 in the US). I'm pretty sure it will fit me. If not, I will make it fit! 

Cool or what?

Christmas!

Now I'm so tierd I could just lay down and die,but Its still to early to go to bed. Its saturday, and who goes to bed at 22.31 at a saturday night? I don't wanna be a looser.

My parents are watching a crappy romantic movie, so while they enjoy watching boring movies I might as well show some pictures of my Christmas celebration.

Our awesome Christmas tree decorated by me and by brother yesterday. Decorating christmastrees are quite fun, and for a short moment I really do get into a christmas mood where I'm excited its Christmas.

Some days ago I decided to try to make a gingerbread house. For many years I have been wanting to decorate gingerbread house, but never had time. But this year, I decided I had to try, because it might be my only chance in many years to make one. As decoration I used mostly pink! LOL sparkles,pearls and hearts. Not so very Christmas.

My Christmas eve look. Hurried and took a picture before joining eating Christmas dinner with my family and grandparents. 

Very messy after opening presents. I got alot of nice things this year, things I need, and thing I don't really need but really wanted anyway! But my favorite things I got this year was a painting made by my good friend Rikke. I really love it! too bad I forgot to take a picture of it, because its really really awesome. I love Rikke <3 

I also got makeups that I really wanted, and outdoor clothes that I really needed. And not to forget to mention that the presents I bought to myself also is pretty nice! So all those things are my favorite this year!

Some pictures of my presents this year: 

My new whore/party shoes! So this is my new shoes to use when I wanna go dancing, or just be slutty. I bought these as a Christmas present to myself. And Im so smart that I bought them many weeks ago online, so I totally forgot how they looked like before opening the present to myself. So my first though was "OMG,I GOT SOOOO GOOD TASTE IN FASHION!!" I love that Im so bad at remembering things that I get surprised over my own buys. 

I got a goooood warm winter jacket. I told my parents I needed some warm outdoorclothes, because this winter I wanna go play outside in the snow, try out snowboarding again, wanna break some bones while trying to snowboard, and I wanna make ugly snowangles without my panties getting wet looool

so I ofcourse got matching pants for playing in the snow with also! I told my parents I wanted white, so I'm very happy I got white pants and jacket! Oh yeah!

Socks, I'm sure one of the presents almost all people get every year is socks, and I must admit I also gave someone socks as present this year also......And the pink x blue onces with matching mittens are from my aunt. Every year we have a tradition where she buy me ugly socks, I love it! Im using them right now as I write this entry...

So when I was in Seoul last time I bought my aunt some ugly sock as well. 3 pair of damn ugly socks, one of them a pair of Obama socks hahaha wtf random.

Some perfume,lotions,earrings and a lip balm inside a crown, very cute. 

More nail polish. I'm sure I got around 100 different colors now. I always get nail polish as present from friends etc when I have birthday or when its Christmas. But I love fixing my nails, so i think its always nice to get more colors. While I'm finished writing this I should color my toenails, I always forget my toenails! and everytime I have yogaclasses I feel stupid when I have ugly toenails FML

And the makeup stuff! Chanel lipgloss and Yves Saint Laurent eyeshadow from my brother! They sparkel so much, I love it! And I also bough a Chanel eyeliner to myself.

I also got some other stuffs,like a top from my moms female friend. In size large! Do I look like a size large? Hahah. So I can't use that top at all, I'm a size small, extra small, and that top looks like a tent on me! If I wanna go camping I will use that top as my tent. At least its pink, so then I have a pink tent to camp in. Cool or what?

But the best present this year for me was the present of giving my brother the best present ever. He is a hugh Manchester united fan. So I gave him as Christmas and birthday present (got birthday at Christmas eve!) soccertickets to see Manchester United play against Aston villa, and tour tickets to see the whole of old trafford. The look on his face when he opened his present was worth spending all the money I spent on that expensive present.  I think he got a shock. 

Best time of the day at Christmas eve is when the party dress comes off, when the high heels are off, and the sleeping clothes are on. My pretty barbie sleepingwear that makes me look like a bimbo feels like heaven right now. Weird how tiering Christmas Eve can be, right?

Recent buys

Gonna show ya all my recent buys, not that its very interesting, but I'm bored and need something to write about! Im also expecting some stuff in the mail, that are quite awesome,but will show them when I receive them later!

Got the most ugly package ever, look like its been raped really hard by 50 violent men. So when I got it I was really nervous my precious friend inside was raped also, but thank god, it was all okkkkkay!

Inside my package it was my awesome GHD hair straighter! I will recommend everyone with a afro like me to buy GHD. Its seriously the best hair straighter ever. Kinda expensive, but with it! The biggest problem with buying GHD online is that its so many pages who sell fake GHD from China. So if you find it somewhere that its being sold cheap, its fake. But what you can do before buying it checking GHD official webpage where you can check who sells real GHD. I bought mine from lookfantastic.com that are one of those pages who sells real GHD products. Inside the box you get a code you use on the GHD webpage who will confirm that your GHD is real!  

Lookfantastic.com is english shop, so all GHD look like this, but just open socket and inside its an European socket, problem solved!

Got my Chanel eye shadows and mascara. I also waiting for some Chanelstuff to arrive in my mailbox!

Bought more Lee Stafford hair growth treatments. And this time I got a bonus-card, so after I but 5 products I get 50% off, and the 10th I get for free! Perfect for me who gonna continue buying these hair growth products to I get back to Korea. I need longer hair! 

Bought some earrings from Glitter from their swarovski collection. I have gotten very allergic to using fake earrings, my ears bleed worse than my period when I use fake stuff in my ears. 

Using my new earrings! But sadly one of my holes are gone! So I need to go and pierce again, because I feel that 3 holes are better than two! Looks more...finished? if ya know what I mean..

Bought more bra's from H&M Super Push-Up line. Its AMAZING. I seriously got no boobies left after loosing weight, its all flat. And these actually make it looks like I got boobs! The bra's look very simple, only some sparkles and stuff on them. I tend to buy sexy kinda bra's. But these one make my boobs look so good, that I don't care that they look boring. So if anyone out there got no boobies like me, buy these and your boobs will look like huge melons!

I told myself to not buy more clothes. But around Christmas all clothingstores got sparkling stuff. And this one is so cute in reaaaal life! Sparkeling! So I'm looking a forward to new years sale, I'm gonna go crazy buying sparkling clothes. Wanna look like an American Christmas tree!

Wild christmasparty

I always around December read in newspapers and magazines about wild Christmas parties where coworkers do stupid things like sleeping with each other, and beating each other up. "How to behave at Christmas Party with coworkers" Etc. And honestly, I thought these articles were just bullshit, like who actually flirt with their coworkers?! 

I was wrong..

This Saturday I was at Christmas party with my coworkers at some hotel,only had to pay 400 NOK for hotelroom,dinner,breakfast and 6 "free" drinks! So ofcourse I had to go. This is my first real job ever where I have been invite to an Xmas party, So I could not say no going. I really had to see what its like, and how my coworkers are when they are not on job.

And let me tell you all....THE MAGAZINES AND NEWSPAPERS ARE RIGHT!!!!! People are crazy at Xmas Paaaaarties! 

I work at a place where its more men than females, and those females who work there are alot older than me, old enough to be my mom. So I'm the only female who is still young and have no flabby arms and fat all over tha place. I wore a short gold dress and high heels. My gold dress I bought when I was in Korea, for going clubbing. So its kinda sexy, and show of my body well..And I guess my coworkers enjoyed seeing me all dolled up and wearing a dress ( They havn't seen me with makeup,long hair or pretty clothes before because non of that is allowed at my job).And I think my male coworkers penis went wild.

After eating a totally awesome dinner (I took fish,salad and strawberries) it was drinking and dancing time. The first hours went very well, everyone was in a really good mood while drinking and dancing to the liveband that played crappy music for oldies. But after some hours, after people had been drinking the weirdest mixture of cocktails my male coworkers started to become kiiiinda flirty.

When the band stopped playing around 01:00 most of my coworkers left, and if was only few people left, me and other guys. While "enjoying" a mix of vodka,soda and whisky together (In one drink!) on of my coworkers just had to tell my how sexy I were. And tried to kiss me and touch my boobs. Thank god I got awesome fast ninja skills and pushed him off me. But he kept trying to kiss me throughout the hours we sat there. Also some of the other boys sitting there tried the same thing, kissing me, and tried to touch me. I used my ninja skills on all of them. 

But then..........The first annoying guy tried doing the most bizarre thing ever...LICK MY ARMPIT?! and touch my boobs again. But licking armpit seriously is the weirdest thing ever... So I asked him "wtf are you doing???" 

I decided later to go to bed, because well.. It was 04:00 and I was suppose to wake up at 09:00 to eat breakfast (and I did). But on the way to my room one of my coworkers followed me to outside my hotelroom door. He begged me to come to his room,where we could be all alone and he would give me drinks. Well...Fuck no! Everyone knows that drunk men+alone in hotelroom+drinks= want some hanky panky action. So I sad I really had to sleep, and hurried into my room and closed the door infront of him.

After I went to my bed to sleep. It took maybe a half hour. And someone was knocking like crazy on my door, trying to open my door and it was kinda freaky. And guess who it was,well you are probably right, my drunk coworker. He was quite desperate, also tried to call me 6 times, and sent me 2 messages begging me to open my door...Rape alarm activated in my brain!

So I just ignored him for 30 minutes, and he gave up..

I'm very happy none of the flirty (or should i call it sexual harrasment) coworkers was so drunk they didn't show up for breakfast. So I could enjoy eating alone without feeling stressed about meeting them.

Yesterday, first day at work after the xmas party I thought it would be kinda embarrassing seeing my coworkers again. But thank god, the worst one, the armpit man have vacation for a week, so I didn't have to see him..Well well, next Monday will be interesting then!!

My "beautiful" hotel room....

Getting ready for drinking. Feel chubby looking in this picture, but WHATEVER (Didn't bother to take more pictures) 

Welcome drink. No clue what it was, but it was quite good.

My dinner. fish, some egg, strawberries (was decoration,but I stole it!mouhaha)

Stealing more strawberries decoration, when other don't steal strawberries, I had to. I'm a criminal motherfuuckaaaaa

The most sad Christmas tree I've ever seen.Looked like a road kill.

Damn ugly picture. But my boss joined taking many pictures, doing silly faces etc.He is quite cool. Got more bossed, but this one if my favorite one! Very down to earth, also stole my drinks....

Korean Cherry Blossom Tattoo

I really wanna take a tattoo on my hip or waist when I'm back in Korea. When I was in Korea and it was spring, I fell in love with the cherry blossom trees at the school campus at Yonsei University. And I would love to tattoo it on my hips or waist, If i manage to loose a little more fat there first.

My picture from the school campus, same picture as I use as background picture on my blog.

Reason why I want it on my lower hip is because I can decide who is going to see it or not, if you know what I mean heh he he hhehe

I also want something written in Korean. Because when I become old and can't remember my own name, or who I am. Then I can look at my tattoo and think "did I go to korea?" and.."Is this why my children doesn't look 100% norwegian?!" loool. So not only is it pretty, but also quite smart.